`soda

soda pauper is dead.

2005-09-29T23:14:00.000+08:00

I have said it. this is dead. my emoticons cannot be controlled anyway. o have moved on to better things in life. I might return....sometime later on.

a new home : the blasphemy of the whammy bar

i cant stand it anymore

2005-09-27T23:09:00.000+08:00

i swear this blog is gonna be dead la...after all the fucking idiotic modifications i made to this....

signs of a new blog coming soon i guess

Pieces

2005-09-25T17:39:00.000+08:00

I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don’t believe it makes me real
I thought it’d be easy
But no one believes me
I meant all the things I said

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don’t know how it got so bad
Sometimes it’s so crazy
That nothing can save me
But it’s the only thing that I have

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own

On my own

I tried to be perfect
It just wasn’t worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It’s hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own

Remedy

2005-09-14T16:28:00.000+08:00

Throw your dollar bills and leave your thrills all here with me
And speak but don't pretend I won't defend you anymore you see
It aches in every bone, I'll die alone, but not for you
My eyes don't need to see that ugly thing, I know it's me you fear
If you want me hold me back

Frail, the skin is dry and pale, the pain will never fail
And so we go back to the remedy
Clip the wings that get you high, just leave them where they lie
And tell yourself, "You'll be the death of me"

I don't need a friend, I need to mend so far away
So come sit by the fire and play a while, but you can't stay too long
It aches in every bone, I'll die alone, but not for pleasure
I see my heart explode, it's been eroded by the weather here
If you want me hold me back

Frail, the skin is dry and pale, the pain will never fail
And so we go back to the remedy
Clip the wings that get you high, just leave them where they lie
And tell yourself, "You'll be the death of me"
Frail, the skin is dry and pale, the pain will never fail
And so we go back to the remedy
Clip the wings that get you high, just leave them where they lie
And tell yourself, "You'll be the death of me"

Hold your eyes closed, take me in
Hold your eyes closed, take me in

Frail, the skin is dry and pale, the pain will never fail
And so we go back to the remedy
Clip the wings that get you high, just leave them where they lie
And tell yourself, "You'll be the death of me"
Frail, the skin is dry and pale, the pain will never fail
And so we go back to the remedy
Clip the wings that get you high, just leave them where they lie
And tell yourself, "You'll be the death of me"

NTR\MISSION

2005-09-12T17:27:00.000+08:00

What's this? Who's this?
A friend of mine once told me
" Youre playing with fire , man
youre gonna get burned."

"but dude" , i said to him . " I'm sick n' tired of standing in line..."
"Didnt feel like waiting for my turn, so i dove straight in,"

Head first , prepared for the worst.
Never expected to be first.
My paitence had been put to the test , for 16 years.

As they used to say, there's so much time, isnt it?
Drank a lot of beers, cried a few tears

Dated that girl for just a little well, guess what?
Turned out she wasnt my kind of style
nice smile , but cheating ways that left me in a haze

I cleared my head , one night in bed
I started to crumble, but i arent no wanting trouble

so i decided to step away fom all that rubble
that same ol' fren said something else; that really made some sense

"Things in life will take a twist , then a turn..."
As that buddy toild me another day , live and learn
cause all this experience , you won't get at school..
so if you ever really know where u will stand in life

take a quick glance ,
then grab that chance.

END OF NTR\MISSION.
THIS IS OPERATOR WIL ,
LOGGING OFF.

who's she?

2005-09-06T13:24:00.000+08:00

Posters of love surrounding me
I'm lost in a world of fantasy
Every night she comes to me
And gives me all the love I need
Now this hot girl, she's not your average girl
She's a morpharotic dream from a magazine
And she's so fine, designed to blow your mind
She's a dominatrix supermodel beauty queen

I dream about a girl who's a mix of Destiny's Child
Just little touch of Madonna's wild style
With Janet Jackson's smile
Throw in a body like Jennifer's
You've got the star of my liquid dreams
My liquid dreams

Angelina Jolie's lips to kiss in the dark
Underneath Cindy C's beauty mark
When it comes to the test, well, Tyra's the best
And Salma Hayek brings the rest

Now this hot girl, she's not your average girl
She's a morpharotic dream from a magazine
And she's so fine, designed to blow your mind
She's a dominatrix supermodel beauty queen

Looks ain't everthing
She's got the sweetest personality
Like Halle B (Halle B)

My mama thinks I'm lazy
My friends all think I'm crazy
But in my mind
I leave the world behind

Every night I dream
Liquid dreams
My liquid dreams
Waterfalls and streams
These liquid dreams

其实你不懂我的心

2005-09-05T15:30:00.000+08:00

其实你不懂我的心

曲:童安格词:陈桂珠

你说我像云捉摸不定
其实你不懂我的心
你说我像梦忽远又忽近
其实你不懂我的心
你说我像谜总看不清
其实我永不在乎掩藏真心
怕自己不能负担对你的深情
所以不敢靠你太近
你说要远行暗地里伤心
不让你看到哭泣的眼睛

Creeping Death........

2005-09-02T15:31:00.000+08:00

Slaves
Hebrews born to serve, to the pharaoh
Heed
To his every word, live in fear
Faith
Of the unknown one, the deliverer
Wait
Something must be done, four hundred years
[chorus:]
So let it be written
So let it be done
I'm sent here by the chosen one
So let it be written
So let it be done
To kill the first born pharaoh son
I'm creeping death

Now
Let my people go, land of goshen
Go
I will be with thee, bush of fire
Blood
Running red and strong, down the nil
Plague
Darkness three days long, hail to fire

Die by my hand
I creep across the land
Killing first born man
Die by my hand
I creep across the land
Killing first born man
I
Rule the midnight air the destroyer
Born
I shall soon be there, deadly mass
I
Creep the steps and flood final darkness
Blood
Lambs blood painted door, i shall pass

what happen to you?

2005-09-01T15:16:00.000+08:00

thinking about thinking of you
summertime i think it was june
yeah i think it was june
laying back head in the grass
children grown having some laughs
yeah having some laughs

you made me feel like the one
made me feel like the one
the one
you made me feel like the one
made me feel like the one
the one

drinking back drinking for two
drinking with you
when drinking was new
sleeping in the back of my car
we never went far
needed to go far

you made me feel like the one
made me feel like the one
the one
you made me feel like the one
made me feel like the one
the one

i dont know where we are going now
i dont know where we are going now

wake up cold coffee and juice
remembering you
what happened to you
i wonder if well meet again
talk about us instead
talk about why did it end?

you made me feel like the one
made me feel like the one
the one
you made me feel like the one
made me feel like the one
the one

i dont know where we are going now
i dont know where we are going now

so take a look at me now

FUCK this life.

2005-08-28T14:57:00.000+08:00

"If you're 555
Then I'm 666."

Everbody's so infatuated,
Everybody's so completely
Sure of what we are.
Everybody defamates
From miles away,
But face to face, they
Haven't got a thing to say
I bleed for this and I bleed for you
Still you look in my face
Like I'm somebody new
Toy, nobody wants
Anything I've got
Which is fine
Because you're made of
Everything I'm not.......

Everything i am not..

becuz ,

It's a fucked up world a fucked up place
Everybody's judged by the fucked up face
Fucked up dreams fucked up life
A fucked up kid with a fucked up knife
Fucked up moms and fucked up dads
A fucked up cop with a fucked up badge
Fucked up job with fucked up pay
And a fucked up boss is a fucked up day
Fucked up press and fucked up lies
Ain't it a shame that you can't say fuck
Fuck just a word and it's all fucked up
Like a fucked up punk with a fucked up mouth
A nine-inched nail - get knocked the fuck out
Fucked up aids from fucked up sex
Fake-assed titties on a fucked up chest
We're all fucked up so what cha wanna do?
With fucked up me and fucked up you
Ain't life a bitch a fucked up ditch
A fucked up sore with a fucked up stitch
A fucked up head is a fucked up shame
Swingin' on my nuts it's a fucked up game
Jealously thrills up a fucked up mind
It's real fucked up like a fucked up crime
If i say fuck two more times
That's 46 fucks in this fucked up rhyme
so,

welcome to my fucked up life ,
you fucked up animals

kiss my fucked up ass if you fucking dare to

i am out of this fucking life.

*jumps from a building*

One Sanitarium

2005-08-21T12:06:00.000+08:00

I can't remember anything
Can't tell if this is true or dream
Deep down inside i feel to scream
This terrible silence stops me

Now that the war is through with me
I'm waking up i can not see
That there is not much left of me
Nothing is real but pain now

Hold my breath as i wish for death
Oh please god,wake me

Back in the womb its much too real
In pumps life that i must feel
But can't look forward to reveal
Look to the time when i'll live

Fed through the tube that sticks in me
Just like a wartime novelty
Tied to machines that make me be
Cut this life off from me

Hold my breath as i wish for death
Oh please god,wake me
Now the world is gone i'm just one
Oh god,help me hold my breath as i wish for death
Oh please god help me

Darkness imprisoning me
All that i see
Absolute horror
I cannot live
I cannot die
Trapped in myself
Body my holding cell

Landmine has taken my sight
Taken my speech
Taken my hearing
Taken my arms
Taken my legs
Taken my soul
Left me with life in hell
Welcome to where time stands still
no one leaves and no one will
Moon is full, never seems to change
just labeled mentally deranged
Dream the same thing every night
I see our freedom in my sight
No locked doors, No windows barred
No things to make my brain seem scarred

Sleep my friend and you will see
that dream is my reality
They keep me locked up in this cage
can't they see it's why my brain says Rage

Sanitarium, leave me be
Sanitarium, just leave me alone

Build my fear of what's out there
and cannot breathe the open air
Whisper things into my brain
assuring me that I'm insane
They think our heads are in their hands
but violent use brings violent plans
Keep him tied, it makes him well
he's getting better, can't you tell?

No more can they keep us in
Listen, damn it, we will win
They see it right, they see it well
but they think this saves us from our Hell

Sanitarium, leave me be
Sanitarium, just leave me alone
Sanitarium, just leave me alone

Fear of living on
natives getting restless now
Mutiny in the air
got some death to do
Mirror stares back hard
Kill, it's such a friendly word
seems the only way
for reaching out again.

Metal.

2005-08-20T14:05:00.000+08:00

I heard some of the most horrifying stories about metal since I became a metalhead. Why? Damn, there are much more horrible stories in hip-hop! I tried to get some of these stories, which I felt represented the overall impression people get nowadays about metalheads. And the recent events regarding Dimebag Darrell's death gave me the last energy surge I needed to clarify some myths.

Myth: All metalheads are satanists and pagan-infused monsters.

Reality: I'm so overwhelmed by the fact that some people still think those kinds of things. Of course, when you see me coming around with my "Altar Of Sacrifice" Slayer hoodie, it's not that surprising. But hell, I thought that people got open-minded enough to accept the fact that it's SHOWBIZ! Tom Araya is catholic. Dani Filth is not a reincarnation of the demon. Dimmu Borgir aren't worshipping Satan in their basements. Emperor won't sacrifice live animals and humans on stage. Burzum isn't... ok. Bad example...

Yeah! There are these specific cases. Burzum is one. Mayhem is one. But you have to remember that these guys are playing music. Whether they play Power, Thrash or Black is not important. Ihsahn, Emperor's frontman once said that "The fact that I play Black Metal does not make me unhuman. I'm in fact someone who laughs and smile a lot. I also cry sometimes."

So please, the times where Catholics burned "Number Of The Beast" is over. Music is music. Styles are images used to transmit this music.

Myth: Limp Bizkit, Linkin Park, System Of A Down and Evanescence are some of the hardest metal bands.

Reality: This one is mostly heard in the 12-14 year old range. The first thing that should be done is asking this question: Are they Metal at all? System was once classified as "Alternative Metal". I don't think they still are, but it's true they're hard. Limp and Linkin are coming straight from the Nu-Metal revolution, yet they both took a huge Mainstream Rock step these last years. Evanescence is the American clone of Italian Goth-Metallers Lacuna Coil. But! Evanescence is Gothic Rock, not Metal.

The arguable classifications of these bands come from logic. The active use of double-pedal and power-chord based riffing is not a sign of Metalness. If you look for the hardest metal bands, go seek some Cannibal Corpse, Deicide, Emperor, Immortal, DarkThrone, Satyricon.

(really biased opinion here)

Myth: Metal was and still is an underground and shadowy genre.

Reality: Metallica, Anthrax, Megadeth, Slayer, Iron Maiden, Judas Priest, Motorhead, Motley Crue, Twisted Sister, Sonata Arctica, Nightwish, Stratovarius, Dream Theater, Pantera (R.I.P. Dimebag). Underground and shadowy? Yeah right...

Myth: Where does Rammstein belong?

Reality: Rammstein is Industrial. Industrial was always seen as one of the most fucked-up styles ever, because it can't be classified. Yet Rammstein has a lot of supporters in the Metal camp, so I guess they are Metal, but they could easily be Rock as well.

Myth: A metal band must have a Double-Bass equipped drum.

Reality: Not really. A double-pedal does the same job. The choice whether the band needs a second bass-drum or not solely belongs the band's drummer. Need examples? In Flames and Soilwork, both major players in the Gothenburg Death Metal genre are double-pedal players. Symphony X, a huge Progressive Metal act is double-pedal-based also. Metallica was double-pedal during the Load/ReLoad/Garage Inc. era.

Myth: Metal is solely sound, there ain't no technicality in it.

Reality: Uh... Dream Theater anyone? Some of the world's most technical musicians are in Metal bands. Metal is actually the musical genre who allows the most technicality because of its large and almost infinite range.

A few myths, some I think being the most stupid. Yet it's really biased. But I just wanted to do a nice intro to my next articles about Metal genres, which are probably going to clarify very specific myths about things very specific to each genre.

Slipped Away

2005-08-19T11:18:00.000+08:00

Why do i always get oppotunites only to let them slip away? why?

I ve always wanted a good,wodnerful guitar like a Mick 7 Bc Rich Warlock, or a LTD EC 50.
This guy was selling it cheap,his ltd for 350 and mick 7 for 300.

and now i ve no money.maybe the 170 i have after selling my guitar.
sigh.
anyone care to help me? to give me a hand? hope? encouragement?

All the torment and the pain
Leaked through the cover in me

All I need to make it real is one more reason
I dont know what to do, I dont know what to do

Maggots

2005-08-17T15:30:00.000+08:00

today is a day to study at home. No bio for me that's why haha.
OMG i cant believe i have to miss the Slipknot concert. It was great rocking!

here are some extracts from some of my friends' blogs on their account of the SLIPKNOT concert at fort canning park yesterday.

MAGGOT
by Vio

You know how grandma's and, in particular, grandpas would recall to you in vivid detail something that happened to them like 50 years ago?

Today is one of those days that i GUARANFUCKINGTEE will recall in the most vivid of details even when i'm 100 years old.

I believe that tonight, history has been made. Never EVER has there been a show this insane and this wicked on Singapore soil. They say that the last rock concert that was heavy metal was in 1993 when Metallica came here on their world tour...

On a scale of heaviness... Metallica is a 7 upon 10... and tonight's was a 23 upon 10.

The Slipknot gig was the most amazing gig i have EVER seen... EVER!!!!!

The energy was just completely carnal! All 9 members were headbanging like no fucking tomorrow and its definitely a lot more amazing than it is on DVD. Hairflying... sticks flying... members jumping all over the stage... more coordinated waist-down headbanging... more hairflying...

Let me just elaborate on how i actually got to the gig in the first place.

You see i bought the ticket last minute... and when i mean last minute i really mean at the last fucking minute, right outside the gates from someone i totally didn't know. He won that bloody ticket from some competition on soft.com and i bought that ticket of $60 value for $50.

Not bad... saved $10.

Only to realise that the ticket said "FREE STANDING".

Which kinda confused the ticketing people as they didn't know which colour tag to give me. The price stated $0.00 dollars... and they only knew how to tag according to price. Should have told them i wanted the $150 value one but i got to meet some kids there and decide i needed the company... so i got the $60 tag.

I was early and was right beside the barricade between the $150 and the $60. There was still lotsa space in the $150 pit. I just knew the crowd wouldn't just allow the barricade to stand.

I was right. Once the first hint of the concert kicking off, the $60 crowd surged inwards and totally broke through the barricade. Me being on the very edge hopped right in and immediately blended into the $150 crowd.

Perfect position. I was only 10m from the stage!!!

So i paid $50... but got a standing space worth $150!!! HAHAHAHAHA!!!!

------------------------------

When the concert kicked off it was simply unreal... Seeing Joey Jordison on the drums is like getting to fuck Angelina Jolie.

A lot of the songs i wasn't too familiar, which was a good thing so i didn't headbang myself crazy and took the time to really pay attention on stage, and boy do they really know how to put on an intense show!!

That image of all 9 members pounding their heads to the crushing music is something i will not forget and will be a topic to be brought up again and again for a long long time...

... and to top it all off, they played all my favorite Slipknot songs. Heretic Anthem... People = Shit... Duality... Spit it out... Wait and Bleed...

I totally lost it when they played Heretic. I should be dead by now from a broken neck and severe brain trauma but somehow i survived and found myself still breathing when the song ended.

I still cannot believe i was at a Slipknot gig... this is totally UNREAL! No words can express the surreality that is clouding me yet i can barely think straight since the high is showing no signs of wearing off.

My Tshirt was completely soaked... my bermudas were soaked through... my phone is dead from all the jumping and sweat... i've drank 2 liters of fluids since the gig ended and i'm still thirsty... and i'm an extremely happy man.

Catch all the photos in The Straits Times Life! section on thursday... i stuck out my tongue for the camera man and maybe it'll come out.

By Metalella_eh
it was insane. totally insane. SlipKnoT's concert was a blast.

we went to the venue. tons of people were there. went it's time to go in. total chaos erupted. made way to the gate. a car came in WITH SID IN IT! he was video taping everything. i recognised him through his transformers tattoo on his hand. after that, went in. booked the best place. we were upfront and upclose. after like an hour and a half of wait, Prelude 3.0 started blasting through the amps. but it went off due to technical difficulties. after a short while everything's back up. Prelude 3.0 came up again! when it's nearing the end of the song, that's when the members started coming in!

Mick came in soaking wet! the crowds were high, everything just turned into complete chaos. shan't go into the details. while stopping in between songs, corey spoke to us. he call us to take care of the people around us as we are all of one, and we are here for the music. he told us that nothing's going to stop them from playing tonight because there's 2 things that's pushing them through which is the music and US the maggots.

SlipKnot did change their mask but they never go UNMASKED. it's the DEATH MASK that is when they play for Vermillion. i've been seeing people typing 'they go unmasked' on the forums. *speechless*

if i can remember clearly, during one of the songs, shawn threw the baseball bat over joey to the backstage. joey was looking at the baseball bat flying over him while playing. think he feared that the baseball bat will hit him. and while playing pulse of the maggots, sid actually worn out and started lying on the ground while chris points at sid with his mic as the crowd shout 'we won't die'. sid and clown actually brawled like the old times and sid dragged clown to his percussions and started brawling on the percussion. damn its hell up there.

after a few songs, the band stopped again and that's when corey started to be cocky and such.
'is it hot out there? are you guys fucking hot? *sprays water* it's damn comfortable up on the stage right here'
everything just went on as usual. the band actually gave us more than we should get. i've come to realise they did 2 more songs than the usual 15 that they always do.
let's see the song listing -

1. the blister exist
2. (sic)
3. before i forget
*i can't remember the sequence already so i will go by the albums* *grins*
4. eyeless
5. wait and bleed
6. surfacin'
7. spit it out
8. eeyore
9. people = shit
10. disasterpieces
11. everything ends
12. heretic anthem
13. left behind
14. purity
15. duality
16. vermillion
17. pulse of the maggots.

YEAH. they indeed add 2 more songs to the usual 15 songs they did normally. we maggots here in singapore are very LUCKY. SLIPKNOT, i have a new found respect for you guys.
for pictures of the gig, refer to www.soft.com.sg.

this is certainly one night i'm going to remember for the rest of my life.

White Blood Cells

2005-08-16T16:06:00.000+08:00

Fall is here, hear the yell

back to school, ring the bell
brand new shoes, walking blues
climb the fence, books and pens
I can tell that were going to be friends
Walk with me, Suzy Lee
through the park and by the tree
we will rest upon the ground
and look at all the bugs we found
then safely walk to school
without a sound
Well here we are, no one else
we walked to school all by ourselves
theres dirt on our uniforms
from chasing all the ants and worms
we clean up and now its time to learn
Numbers, letters, learn to spell
nouns, and books, and show and tell
at playtime we will throw the ball
back to class, through the hall
teacher marks our height
against the wall
And we dont notice any time pass
we dont notice anything
we sit side by side in every class
teacher thinks that I sound funny
but she likes the way you sing
Tonight Ill dream while in my bed
when silly thoughts go through my head
about the bugs and alphabet
and when I wake tomorrow Ill bet
that you and I will walk together again
cause I can tell that were going to be friends

Some kind of monster , St. Anger

2005-08-15T15:01:00.000+08:00

well well
today is the first day of the prelims.
the first day of a one month agony.

who am i ? i asked myself during the middle of the english paper 2
i am ,
some kind of monster?
hero of the day?
harvester of sorrow?
st. anger?
the unforgiven?
master of puppets?
king nothing?

none i wud say.
i am a nobody.
Nobody is ugly and useless, they say
bud sadly i am nobody.
that is my answer.

Invisible kid
Never see what he did
Got stuck where he hid
Fallen through the grid

Invisible kid
Got a place of his own
Where he'll never be known
Inward he's grown

Invisible kid
Locked away in his brain
From the shame ant the pain
World down the drain

Invisible kid
Suspicious of your touch
Don't want no crutch
But it's all too much

I hide inside
I hurt inside
I hide inside, but I'll show you…

I'm OK, just go away
Into distance let me fade
I'm OK, just go away
I'm OK, but please don't stray too far

Open your heart
I'm beating right here
Open your mind
I'm being right here, right now
Open your heart
I'm beating right here
Open your mind
I'm being right here, right now

Ooh, what a good boy you are
Out of the way and you're kept to yourself
Ooh, can't you see that he's not here
He doesn't want the attention you give
Ooh, Unplugging from it all
Invisible kid floats alone in his room
Ooh, what a quiet boy you are
He looks so calm floating 'round and around in himself

These are the eyes that can't see me
These are the hands that drop your trust
These are the boots that kick you around
This is the tongue that speaks on the inside
These are the ears that ring with hate
This is the face that'll never change
This is the fist that grinds you down
This is the voice of silence no more

These are the legs in circles run
This is the beating you'll never know
These are the lips that taste no freedom
This is the feel that's not so safe
This is the face you'll never change
This is the god that ain't so pure
This is the god that is not pure
This is the voice of silence no more

We the people
Are we the people?

Some kind of monster
The monster lives

This is the face that stones you cold
This is the moment that needs to breathe
These are the claws that scratch these wounds

This is the cloud that swallows trust
This is the black that uncolors us
This is the face that you hide from
This is the mask that comes undone

This is me.

the monster lives
`soda pauper

For Whom The Bell Tolls

2005-08-13T15:26:00.000+08:00

godammit got a c5 for chinese. fuck . fuck.

gotta retake. better chance of a b3. hope.hope.

i m certainly gone crazy. muah. i need my momma.

anyway, JANIS had the same results as me...hahaha exactly the same..c5 for written, P for oral which means pass aka sucky. heheh. most of us arent 'chinese' anyway. haha. prelims' on monday. sure fail. still muz mug. i hope voldemort comes kill me soon, cause i am a mugger. lame. erm yeah thanks to all ur 'good lucks' .shine on me o lady luck! nvm i bet she's deaf.
anyway good luck (again!) to all who are having prelims soon. i wonder why i bother to say this?
i hear the bell tolling.
but for whom the bell tolls?

For the SAF reservists of course. Newspaper report say the years for reservists has been shortened. The Hsien Lang really good at making benefical polices. hmmmm.

Make his fight on the hill in the early days
Constant chill deep inside
Shouting gun, on they run through the endless grey
On the fight, for they are right, yes, by who's to say?
For a hill men would kill, why? they do not know
Suffered wounds test there their pride
Men of five, still alive through the raging glow
Gone insane from the pain that they surely know
For whom the bell tolls
Time marches on
For whom the bell tolls
Take a look to the sky just before you die
It is the last time you will
Blackened roar massive roar fills the crumbling sky
Shattered goal fills his soul with a ruthless cry
Stranger now, are his eyes, to this mystery
He hears the silence so loud
Crack of dawn, all is gone except the will to be
Now they will see what will be, blinded eyes to see

EXIT LIGHT
ENTER NIGHT
TAKE MY HAND
WE' RE OFF TO NEVER NEVER LAND
`sodapauper

Big Me and Nothing Else Matters

2005-08-09T13:01:00.000+08:00

well i have to say.
Time and tide waits for no man. No one.
but I know
never opened myself this way
life is ours, we live it our way
all these words I don't just say
trust I seek and I find in you
every day for us something new
open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

went to sentosa yesterday with jerome, mike, alph , deidre and her bro david.
spent the time there playing beach soccer and swimming in the stupid salty sea. yuck.
anyway, nothing else to say.
today is suppose to be national day, but fuck this nation anyway.
useless shit crap of a country.

and I know
so close no matter how far
couldn't be much more from the heart
forever trusting who we are
no nothing else matters

Big Me by Foo Fighters

when I talk about it
it carries on
reasons only knew
when I talk about it
aries or treasons
all renew
big me to talk about it
I could stand to prove
if we can get around it
I know that it's true
when I talked about it
carried on
reasons only knew
but it's you I fell into
(repeat)

well I talked about it
put it on
never was it true
but it's you i fell into

wiL

How many special people change?

2005-08-04T22:49:00.000+08:00

Artist: Oasis
Album: (What's The Story) Morning Glory
Title: Champagne Supernova

How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?
Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova in the sky
Wake up the dawn and ask her why
A dreamer dreams, she never dies
Wipe that tear away now from your eye
Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova
'Cuz we don't believe
That they're gonna get away from the summer
But you and I will never die
The world's still spinning around we don't know why
Why-why-why-why-i-i
(guitar solo)
How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?
Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova
'Cuz we don't believe
That they're gonna get away from the summer
But you and I will never die
The world's still spinning around we don't know why
Why-why-why-why-i-i
(a really long guitar solo)
(background - sounds)
(birds chirping)
(more guitar)
How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?
We were getting high
(Fades out )
(Song gets really quiet, fades to a peaceful guitar solo.)
(Slow drum cadence behind a long held note with a peaceful pitch.)
(Last guitar solo behind the long note.)

Mate Feed Kill Repeat

2005-08-01T17:58:00.000+08:00

What can i say?
People = Shit
see if you understand

anyway. more rumors abt the recent tragedy of Ms.Leong. wun say much.
been very enthu abt bc rich guitars these days. still pindering whether i shld 'trade' my strat for the TGM warlock? i duno. i ned answers.

god, Nu-metal rocks! Nu-metal is much better than what death metal, balck metal and all tat kind of genres.
cant stand anti-christs and satanists. there's just something wrong abt them.

anyway. wrote a song juz now. it just suddenly came to me. haha. i tink i wud call it 'Black day'. hahax.

opps. its exclusive . xP.

there ae alot of idea thiefs around the net hahaha.

peace,

Noodles

RESPECT

2005-07-29T13:29:00.000+08:00

We remember how You loved us to your death
And still we celebrate for You are with us here
And we believe that we will see you
When You come, In Your glory Lord
We remember, we celebrate, we believe

But it goes against the way i am
To put my human nature down
And let the spirit take control of all i do
Cause when those trials come my human nature
Shouts the things to do
And God's soft prompting can be easily ignored

today is Founder's Day in skool , no lessons yeah!
bud we had mass instead. had a feeling not to sit with the catholic boys as i should have haha...so i sat with my own klass. How i hate those non-catholics..Father P. Zhang, unless us is not english educated. He learnt it thru hard work and because it was not as fluent, THE MARISTS laughed. They CURSED, they SWORE, they JOKE , they SLEPT. MUTHAFUCKERS God damn you ungreatful bastards. Dun ask me why i 'dao' you. Who asked you fuckers to be deaf...assholes. Kan Lan ah.

Anyway...now we know how Ms Leong passed away. Quite sad actually.The mass went on well...although year 2001's Founder's Day mass was the best. haha. Sam Wong , Lucas , Joel, Jude...basically the whole music 'ministers' of MSHS. KUDOS.

oh well nth much today.mum finally talked to me.cool.i love my mum.
contradictory i know. bud i dounch care ~leh
lol. laters

love
-noodles

::emotional::

2005-07-28T20:23:00.000+08:00

Oh where oh where could my lord be?

This morning our skool teachers were called for an 'short' meeting.
We all tot it was normal...until a rumor spread that Ms Serene Leong had commited suicide. Nobody believed it. CTS aka the old man confirmed it. She 'passed' away, but the reason is strictly to be kept confidental. Harry was super paranoid...giving us stupid conculsions on why she died. -.-" I wun not say more.

She is after all a staunch catholic, a friendly teacher who actually agreed to take photo wif us , 3K during last year's Sports Day. What can i say?

I went home at 7.30pm after tuition wif Fabian and his fren Bryan, as well as tis gurl frm Whitley Secondary...didnt catch her name though...looks familar to me..apparently a fren of tat tart Renfu. Studied at Mos Burger at TP for abt 2 hrs....went home to see parent's black face. Dunno why.

Teeth been aching these few days , due to that Dr. A T who put some restrainer thingie and hurt my gums.She actually nt that bad lar..quite cute and very caring person haha. She keep coaxing me and comforting me ....todl me it is really uncomfortable and i have to bear wif it for a while. Guess cant really blame her bah...haha xD.
Cudnt eat proper food for like so many days....then that Fucked up bitch who is my mum continued ignorning and complaining abt me behind my back.Tonight she said i dun eat because i dun like her food, so i todl my dad abt my gums. He then helped my mum....said she was telling hi mto leave the last piece of siew mai for me...yeah I BELIEVE..........
NOT.

Everyday i hope for stratocaster to find a buyer, for love, for peace and for the most important thing
to have less people dying.
Peace ,
- Noodle

Last Kiss

2005-07-27T16:27:00.000+08:00

harlow? harlow?

so life's been so stressful these days, and as usual things becoming very flaky.
so i thought maybe i should just give this a new layout. Kinda liked this as this shows my personality, split or not split. I thinks it's a fake. What do you think haha...
been checking up on several cool guitars on the web and collecting their pics, can't beileve how cool they are. Anyway hope to get a buyer for my strat soon, and hopefully fuifill my dream of owning a Warlock or Iceman. haha if you din understand what are those, they are guitar models/shapes as u call it. haha. wonder what does TGM stands for anyway?

well mum arent talking to me anymore , locks herself in her room. Is she weird or am i weird? both maybe. I really hate her saying "oh u are nt even my son!" ...cmon , end it already.

"Sometimes I feel like I don't have a partner.It's hard to believe
That there's nobody out there it's hard to believe
That I'm all alone." - Red Hot Chili Peppers's Under The Bridge

As the song goes , that's how i felt everyday....sort of ~la xP
Definitely nt the part abt i dun have a partner....that i dun care ~lo
bud it feels so empty at home. Music is my companion, bud my mum is depraving me of it. My dad loves to act dumb and stupid , as well as curse and swear. Crazy man.

Now basically been trying to borrow more music albums from those rich classmates of mine, not having to spent another 19-23 bucks juz to buy them. I appreciate my good neighbour Jasper's help and advice for learning the guitar, as well as lending me his music albums haha.

Wish i was a kid, when my parents doted on me more than i could imagine. But things have changed now.I am a ruined man , my dad shouted back the other time i asked for 15 bucks for participaing in the ironkid biathlon. Man, God , heaven , Hell...
save me . 10 pts for being rebellion? No way man. I still wanna live

Well up til now nobody has solved my *cleverly carefully* invented anagram. It depicts something i have always wished to say but never had the chance to. Sometimes I feel so alone. Now i wud give my guitar to whoever can solve my anagram *devilish sniggering* . Now who can solve the "mr #17's noodle code" hehehehe

well that's all for now. one of the longest and most truthful posts i have made since my first entry at my old old *requirem-* blog haha.
Ciao.

- wil noodle

I thought...

2005-07-23T17:20:00.000+08:00

I thought that
You'll always be
my love and pride
because
I doted on you
my
sweet child

I gonna be honest
to let you know
we're covered in lies
and i m okay tonight
its time that change you
in case you know
we will always be here
for you for us

and I
chose the road to change
life like in summer
i wish i know
my life my hope my dreams
my summer
time

sweet child of mine

2005-07-22T17:43:00.000+08:00

You're so predictable.
Always , I know .
You'll be at my show.
Watching , waiting.
Your ride , best trip.
You're the voice inside my head.
All of this ,
And I ,

One way ,
You're the only one that I could live for.
Between each smile ,
There's a tear in your eye.